Just want to give a small update. I made it through my birthday with no meltdowns! The layer of sadness was there but I kept it together. My Mom and Brother called to check on me, which was sweet. I also had messages from Scott's family which I think I will always be surprised by - in a good way! I am thankful that they still consider me part of their family.
I also wrote a bit in my journal which I haven't done for reals in months. It felt good. So begins my new year.