Okay, wanna see something delicious? Boom There you go. These, friends, are miniature pineapple upside down cakes. I forgot the cherries on top, but they were no less delish. A few years ago, my Mom had gotten this book, The Gentle Art of Domesticity by Jane Brocket. In the book there is a little section about pineapples and she had bought this pan that as soon as I saw it I knew I had to have it. Except that I never could bring myself to buy the pan. Why? Idk, $25 for a cake pan that I had never even tried the cake seemed a little frivolous. It still does but after Scott died I bought it, he always encouraged me to get whatever I wanted and I figured I could use the cheeriness of a cute little cake. I tried this recipe except for the ground almonds I used almond flavoring because I'm allergic to almonds. It turned out ah-mazing! So, so good.
So, I'm living in a house that I never thought I'd be staying in for very long so I haven't really decorated or unpacked boxes. Now, I realize I will be here awhile. I really wanted a gateleg table for the kitchen because I like the openess of the kitchen but also need a table so if I have people over for dinner. I didn't exactly find a gateleg table but I did find a really cute little table with drop leaves, and it's white so perfect. side view:
It fits perfectly in that little nook area and I have the chairs in another room to cut down on clutter and then when I need them I can just bring them out. You can see Rocky's back in the top photo. The pups are always so curious when I'm taking photos.
So, yesterday being Memorial Day I drove over to the cemetery. I always used to tell Scott "happy Memorial Day" or "happy Veteran's Day" because he had been in the Army and I know he appreciated being acknowledged that way. It was so beautiful, they had put a flag on every single grave so the hillside was covered with flags! I didn't know that they would do that so I hadn't brought my camera. As Jan likes to remind me, if I had a cell phone I could've gotten a picture.
Last week was really tough. Ups and downs. Started out with my dryer breaking, the lawn mower was broken. Then both got fixed. I almost feel like the cloud of shock I've been in is starting to lift and there's more pain as realization sets in. I feel like an empty shell, almost like just sleepwalking or something. I don't know how to explain the strangeness and pain at the same time. I miss him so much.